to lose control,
lose choice, l
ose mind and all mentality
all at once.
to feel so perfectly placed, so right but so wrong
how can it be to love someone with every inch of my soul,
to yearn a cry in these depths of my hollow heart.
to be so purely entwined within another,
every beating second of me for m love.
to fall so deep and feel so much,
to love so much and want so far.
yet i cannot.
a choice i dont have, control i dont possess.
how can i know something so well but not keep.
to be apart of me, yet not me.
my mind pulls to a strain,
my heart burns to a flame,
my insides swell, my feet run, my hands tremble.
set me in stone for i am frail.
weak festers at my core.
this will kill me,
this pain i cannot explain,
this eruption that begs beneath me.
(Source: alicul, via occean)